Firstly, the personal stuff. ‘I am your Mother, your Daughter, your Sister’, Vesica Piscis and the Lucid Dream in the Sky with Diamonds truly is the most peculiar place. It makes the Mad Hatters Tea Party from Alice in Wonderland look like a Beginner’s Manual. And the feeling that you are the punchline and ‘Always the last to know’ is prevalent for everyone at present. I’ve no idea what is happening from the perspective of reality or even what’s happening in the physical reality we experience and having to rely and trust in spirit and the universe. Even in bewilderment and confusion though, I think the right course is to say ‘Yes’ to a bolt from the blue. The Underground is something else. Some things you just don’t see coming.
On my doorstep this morning. It’s not painted but a reflection from the sun against a white wall which then showed up on the tarmac. Read into it what you want if anything.
There’s also a strong ‘Cue Sun’ feeling to life at the moment though.
And General Lee. I do find it difficult to relate to what’s going on ‘out there’ at the present as it bears only the slightest little relation to my life and much of the NEWS is total garbage and makes no sense. And when my brother recently told me something happened that never happened even in the most surreal Universe, the sense of unreality reached a new level.
In ‘A Course In Miracles’, there is a lesson titled ‘I am upset because I see something that is not there’. This works at two levels. Firstly, when you are upset at something you experience it is saying it is an illusion. There is a second level to this though. You are upset because at a deep level you know it’s not happening and the ego mind, for want of a better description, wants the world of death and guilt and fear to be real so the ego mind is upset because it is not real.
Back in the day, when I started on the path it seemed relatively simple. All you have to do is go into your belief system and emotional coding and release or integrate the Shadow or whatever you do but WTF to the roller coaster and shit storm of Life which then manifests. Again I refer to ‘A Course In Miracles’. It says at a certain point on the journey, teaching is not possible and you will only understand through experience and as I’ve discovered a lot of this comes with hindsight and I think we are definitely in that place.
Also at certain points I’ve very seriously wondered if I’m having a psychotic breakdown and the sense you are going mad and it would appear not. It is seriously a mind fuck within a mind fuck within yet another mind fuck and then another one . Maybe in the quantum world there are an infinite number of mind fucks !
It’s fucking intense.