In the Void.
Where angels fear to tread.
However. The Void is supposedly a positive place in the spiritual journey. Difficult to comprehend when you are up to your neck in it. I suspect this is the Void to end all Voids and Bardo to end all Bardos.
From Wiki :
Śūnyatā (/ʃuːnˈjɑːtɑː/ shoon-YAH-tah; Sanskrit: शून्यता, romanized: śūnyatā; Pali: suññatā), translated most often as “emptiness”, “vacuity”, and sometimes “voidness”, is an Indian philosophical concept. Within Hinduism, Jainism, Buddhism and other philosophical strands, the concept has multiple meanings depending on its doctrinal context. It is either an ontological feature of reality, a meditative state, or a phenomenological analysis of experience.
In Theravāda Buddhism, Suññatā often refers to the non-self (Pāli: anattā, Sanskrit: anātman) nature of the five aggregates of experience and the six sense spheres. Suññatā is also often used to refer to a meditative state or experience.
In Mahāyāna Buddhism, śūnyatā refers to the tenet that “all things are empty of intrinsic existence and nature (svabhava)”, but may also refer to the Buddha-nature teachings and primordial or empty awareness, as in Dzogchen, Shentong, or Chan.
“Śūnyatā” (Sanskrit) is usually translated as “devoidness”, “emptiness”, “hollow”, “hollowness”, “voidness”. It is the noun form of the adjective śūnya, plus -tā:
śūnya, in the context of buddha dharma, primarily means “empty”, or “void,” but also means “zero,” and “nothing,” and derives from the root śvi, meaning “hollow”
-tā is a suffix denoting a quality or state of being, equivalent to English “-ness”
1000 petal lotus tree.
Time going backwards and forwards. Everything holds memory. It’s incredibly emotional.
A crack in time.
On the bright side. I was told there would come a time when the ‘real world’ will start revealing itself and patience is a virtue and let it show itself. I believe it is sneaking through.