Living In The Past


Recently, I came across a video which unfortunately I can’t find now and what it said was that the idea of moving into non duality was a false idea.In reality we are already in non duality and that the mind creates the dual reality where everything seems separated. I would take it further and say the external world is purely a projection which then reflects back. At the moment the world has turned into a vast hall of mirrors and extraordinary super strangeness.

At the core the reality we experience is a wish to be separated from God. IMO. If we experience and see death, illness and war that is the wish projected outwards which then reflects back and is pure illusion caused by our subconscious programming. It’s a matter of changing the mind and heart which is an ongoing process.

Rupert Spira :

Non-duality is the recognition that underlying the multiplicity and diversity of experience there is a single, infinite and indivisible reality, whose nature is pure consciousness, from which all objects and selves derive their apparently independent existence.

Living in the Past. Top boffins say that the brain interprets the physical world as light and audio waves that rebound but that the brain is always experiencing the past. Even if it takes a zillionth of a second it is still the past and it is only experienced in the brain.

And cellular memory. The mind is older than we know. Genetic memory is a theory which proposes that collective memory is encoded into our DNA. And again I would take it one step further and say that this memory replays itself over and over. From birth to death and back again.



I’ve been on a deep dive into memory and it would appear that I have two sets of memories for this life time at least up until the end of my school days which is a mind fxxk in itself but has made sense of a lot of weird stuff. Somehow I must have compartmentalised the memories or realities. Until recently there was a main memory and the other memory has recently come to the fore. It’s not traditional schizophrenia or a memory of two different individuals. Literally the same male physical Frank x 2 but with different experiences and both have a reality to them. ‘Trauma’ would seem to be the cause of the split. It’s entirely possible there are infinite quantum realities. Which leads into the Dream Lord and Dr Who. It’s possible neither of the two sets of memory are real.

In the Dream Lord episode the false dreams were caused by a form of pollen which resonates with me in summer as hayfever is a nuisance. And my mind also turns to mold and fall out. Something in the air.



Remembering God is a present memory rather than a past memory or even a future memory which is a paradox and then takes you into even deeper metaphysical theory territory which is none of it has ever happened or is happening and the 3D world, however many versions of it exist, is purely a thought form, dream, illusion or Maya which reflects the wish to be separated from God. Nothing makes sense and that maybe part of a cunning plan to make reality so nonsensical that the mind is forced into a state where the only option is to let the dualist logical mind go.



Deep in the abyss.


13 thoughts on “Living In The Past

  1. Frank

    Thanks, for your kind words.

    About this article. This is why I pushed back on Ken when he said ‘facts are facts’.
    We have dueling entities in this world, each trying to establish a litmus test for reality. The church on one hand the state on the other.
    Back when the vaccine came out and the state started talking about mandates, Evangelicals in this country said no, ‘my body my choice’. The state doesn’t determine my reality. They were guite right. But, wild feminists like myself have been saying for decades, ‘my body my choice’ with regard to reproduction, only to be told by these same religious types no, the church sanctioned by some god determines your reality.

    Church and State, external authorities, each battling to set the reality for all of us and all of us asking where do I personally get a say in determining what’s real?

    1. I wouldn’t argue with anything you’ve said. We tend to look at the big picture. Abortion is so personal to the individual as well. I’ve had a few conversations over the years and each woman has had a different perspective on the ‘experience’. And purely from a practical POV. There is always a Dr Nick who will offer a service and the repercussions from a black market in abortion.

      And shocks. Every day there is either a personal or collective shock. The judgment came out of a clear blue sky and now here.

      1. Childhood’s End…again.

        There was a childish dust up awhile back about the definition of ‘a woman’. For me it’s simple. A woman is a little girl who grows up and a man is a little boy who grows up. And men and women have differing viewpoints.

        A 10 year old girl is not a woman. And, I don’t know if this is accurate, the story is just emerging. But, I can say from experience this isn’t rare. And I hope the male who committed this crime is charged, but that would not in the brave new ‘theocratic’ world relieve this child from carrying and birthing another child.
        And the ubiquitous border crossing again.

        All god’s chillin’ are gonna get schooled. The snake is in the garden. 🐍

        1. It’s a heart churning horrible story. And the little girl and little boy live on as well.

          I believe there is also a subconscious belief which says ‘All men are rapists’ and ‘All women are whores’ which somehow plays out and is part of the gender divide.

          About no news is good news and a more metaphysical area. From my perspective I’m told the news is happening. How do you know ?

          And other crazy theory. Mu, Lemuria, Atlantis etc are actually a future memory of humanity colonising space.

          1. And my POV FWIW from my male perspective. I am pro choice. At a metaphysical level I see it as Life in a constant state of recycling. Nothing ever really dies. And secondly the majority of women seem to appreciate the choice as far as I can tell and they are the ones who are left holding the baby. And more practical reasons with back street abortions and ‘needlework’ to put it crudely. My great grandmother had thirteen children. I’m sure she and my great grandad loved them all. Is it a life though to be in a continual state of breeding and sperm donoring ? And a pain so utter. Three of the male children died fighting in WW1. How can the heart bear the pain ?

            1. And in its incredibly weird way this video fits with the English Rose, sperm donoring and why everyone I know seems to be reflected out on the silver screen. The female of the species can be very cunning.

  2. Over the last ten years or so I’ve had a mass of doppelgangers show up. Riding on a bus driven by Halloran from The Shining is an experience. Mainly singers and actors and a few TV and movie and sports celebs. Here’s another. Said she was an actress. Very pleasant young lady. And fits in with how me meet up again and again and again and again.

    1. Bus stop. Simply the weirdest place ever.

      Protocols and forgeries.

      ‘Protocol is a system of rules about the correct way to act in formal situations’.

      From Wiki :

      ‘The Protocols of the Elders of Zion (Протоколы сионских мудрецов) or The Protocols of the Meetings of the Learned Elders of Zion is a fabricated antisemitic text purporting to describe a Jewish plan for global domination. The hoax was plagiarized from several earlier sources, some not antisemitic in nature. It was first published in Russia in 1903, translated into multiple languages, and disseminated internationally in the early part of the 20th century. It played a key part in popularizing belief in an international Jewish conspiracy.’

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