The Family Tree


Firstly general weird time stuff. The Land That Time Forgot. Last weekend as part of Father’s Day, I ended up at my old apartment in a village called Broadbridge Heath in England. I left the apartment in 1993 and it hasn’t changed one iota. In nearly 30 years there has been no degradation in the properties and the estate looks exactly the same as when I left it. This follows on from a trip to another estate in which I lived and moved from about 15 years ago. And again in 15 years it hadn’t changed.

Some of us have been on a deep dive over the last few weeks. Even allowing for the fact that we seem to be living in a Dream within a Dream, much of what has been revealed is heinous. It involves ritual abuse, maybe murder, memory wipes, deletion of very important people from your life history, identity theft and maybe creation of a false reality. It’s serious mind fxxk territory. It’s all been very real or as much as anything is real.

But there seems to have been a reason for all this. It has been purposeful. To cut a long story short the aim has been to divert and control energy flow. Specifically spiritual energy. Whoever or whatever has been behind it has attempted to take the energy for itself and dam up the river and create a false river to itself.

Which leads on to what it is. At the core I think it is some form of Shadow Self which has taken on a form of physical reality. It maybe even Alien or AI or maybe even Alien AI. Whatever exactly Alien is.



Over the years I’ve come across many variations of this Mind. I take a ‘No Sympathy For The Devil’ approach now. It’s not wise to hug a crocodile or smile at a crocodile. It’s not going to change and at the same time it’s not real. There are very strong and heavy energies about. Personally over the last year or so I’ve received occasional psychic attacks is the best description. A couple of nights ago I got the ‘zap in the head’ energy which I know a few people have experienced. And not the first time.

This is the second time I have lived in Nutfield. Most of the people I have spoken to have been friendly. To be honest that hasn’t been many as the population seems to have drastically thinned out since the last time I lived here – Everyone’s Gone To The Moon – but a few people who I recognise from the first time I lived here have been giving me ‘Evils’. They have a slight look of fear on their face and the look of ‘WTF is he doing back here’.

At the deepest level, it is a choice though I think. Even living under tyranny is a choice that we make even though it is not in our conscious awareness. ‘Seek not to change the world, but choose to change your mind about the world’ type of thing. It’s very counter intuitive but the mind sets up these contradictory paths and are there to keep you going down the road it wants you to go. People happily give up their lives for ‘King and Country’ and because ‘Uncle Sam Needs You’.

Cellular memory.

‘This world you seem to live in is not home to you. And somewhere in your mind you know that this is true. A memory of home keeps haunting you, as if there were a place that called you to return, although you do not recognize the voice, nor what it is the voice reminds you of. Yet still you feel an alien here, from somewhere all unknown. Nothing so definite that you could say with certainty you are an exile here. Just a persistent feeling, sometimes not more than a tiny throb, at other times hardly remembered, actively dismissed, but surely to return to mind again. No one but knows whereof we speak. Yet some try to put by their suffering in games they play to occupy their time, and keep their sadness from them. Others will deny that they are sad, and do not recognize their tears at all.’


And back to Energy. We are the power. We choose.



Shine On.


51 thoughts on “The Family Tree

    1. Down in cellular memory.

      ‘This world you seem to live in is not home to you. And somewhere in your mind you know that this is true. A memory of home keeps haunting you, as if there were a place that called you to return, although you do not recognize the voice, nor what it is the voice reminds you of. Yet still you feel an alien here, from somewhere all unknown. Nothing so definite that you could say with certainty you are an exile here. Just a persistent feeling, sometimes not more than a tiny throb, at other times hardly remembered, actively dismissed, but surely to return to mind again. No one but knows whereof we speak. Yet some try to put by their suffering in games they play to occupy their time, and keep their sadness from them. Others will deny that they are sad, and do not recognize their tears at all.’

  1. The Song Of Songs.

    ‘Tolkien begins his creation myth by narrating how the universe (Arda) is “sung” into being. God (Eru) creates several spiritual creatures known as the Ainur, which are similar to angels, and invites them to sing a great song. Eru provides them with an overarching theme, on which they can improvise.

    He says to them, “Of the theme that I have declared to you, I will now that ye make in harmony together a Great Music. And since I have kindled you with the Flame Imperishable, ye shall show forth your powers in adorning this theme, each with his own thoughts and devices, if he will. But I will sit and hearken, and be glad that through you great beauty has been wakened into song.”

    Yet, in the midst of that Great Music, a discord arose. One of the Ainur, named Melkor, started to weave his own theme into the music. This disturbed the music, creating disharmony, but Eru was able to incorporate Melkor’s music into it, proving that Melkor’s fall from grace would ultimately be used for Eru’s purposes.

    Eventually Eru shows the Ainur that their music was essentially a narration of what would come to pass, though they do not see the entire picture.

    Interestingly, Tolkien’s close friend C.S. Lewis includes a similar account of song and creation in his book The Magician’s Nephew. There Aslan begins to sing and the world starts to take form, “In the darkness something was happening at last. A voice had begun to sing … It seemed to come from all directions at once … Its lower notes were deep enough to be the voice of the earth herself. There were no words. There was hardly even a tune. But it was beyond comparison, the most beautiful noise he had ever heard.”

    Historically the book of Genesis was sung by the ancient Hebrews and still is sung today by many Jews. God told Moses before the people of Israel entered the Promised Land, “Now therefore write this song, and teach it to the people of Israel; put it in their mouths, that this song may be a witness for me against the people of Israel”
    (Deuteronomy 31:19).’

    The End Of Suffering

    1. Waiting For A Train.

      Mind A Gap and A Gap Mind.

      ‘Agape (Ancient Greek ἀγάπη, agapē) is a Greco-Christian term referring to unconditional love, “the highest form of love, charity” and “the love of God for man and of man for God”. The word is not to be confused with philia, brotherly love, or philautia, self-love, as it embraces a universal, unconditional love that transcends and persists regardless of circumstance. It goes beyond just the emotions to the extent of seeking the best for others. The noun form first occurs in the Septuagint, but the verb form goes as far back as Homer, translated literally as affection, as in “greet with affection” and “show affection for the dead”. Other ancient authors have used forms of the word to denote love of a spouse or family, or affection for a particular activity, in contrast to eros (an affection of a sexual nature).

      Within Christianity, agape is considered to be the love originating from God or Christ for humankind. In the New Testament, it refers to the covenant love of God for humans, as well as the human reciprocal love for God; the term necessarily extends to the love of one’s fellow human beings. Some contemporary writers have sought to extend the use of agape into non-religious contexts.’

      Let’s fuck.

      ‘The Song of Songs (Hebrew: שִׁיר הַשִּׁירִים‎ Šīr hašŠīrīm, Greek and Ancient Greek: ᾎσμα ᾀσμάτων, romanized: Âsma asmátōn; Latin: Canticum canticorum), also Song of Solomon, Canticle of Canticles, or Canticles, is one of the megillot (scrolls) found in the last section of the Tanakh, known as the Ketuvim (or “Writings”). It is unique within the Hebrew Bible: it shows no interest in Law or Covenant or the God of Israel, nor does it teach or explore wisdom like Proverbs or Ecclesiastes (although it does have some affinities to wisdom literature, as the ascription to Solomon indicates); instead, it celebrates sexual love, giving “the voices of two lovers, praising each other, yearning for each other, proffering invitations to enjoy”. The two are in harmony, each desiring the other and rejoicing in sexual intimacy; the women of Jerusalem form a chorus to the lovers, functioning as an audience whose participation in the lovers’ erotic encounters facilitates the participation of the reader.’

      And the Bodyguard and protection keeps coming up.

        1. From Yahoo Life :

          ‘Venus In Leo Is Here. Get Ready For Some Really Good Sex’. And Lisa Stardust. Likely name.

          A big one: Venus, the Planet of Love, is moving into fiery, passionate Leo on June 27, and while it’s there (until July 21), it’ll have us doing the absolute most for love. If you consider yourself more of a shy, low-key kind of lover, you’re in for quite a ride.

          Venus loves being in Leo, and during this transit “we will be reaching into our carnal desires and living fearlessly through our heartfelt sentiments,” says Lisa Stardust, the author of Saturn Return Survival Guide and The Astrology Deck. There’s no time to be coy and play hard-to-get here. This transit will have us putting ourselves out there in the hopes of making a meaningful connection that burns with the fire of one thousand suns — or, just having some really good sex.’

          And Yahoo City.

          1. Keep watching the skies. It’s possible.

            ‘A highly anticipated US government report on UFOs (unidentified flying objects) has just been released. Here’s what we know so far.

            The unclassified report was demanded by Congress after numerous reports from the US military of vehicles seen moving erratically in the sky.

            The UAP task force’s unclassified report found “no clear indications that there is any non-terrestrial explanation” for the aircrafts, but also did not rule it out.

            Last December, the former head of the Israeli space directorate at the country’s defence ministry told a local newspaper that Mr Trump was on the “verge of revealing” the existence of an intergalactic treaty, but pulled back out of fear of inciting a “mass hysteria”.

            “There is an agreement between the US government and the aliens,” Haim Eshed told the Yediot Aharonot newspaper. “They signed a contract with us to do experiments here.”


            1. Dark City

              The Experiment

              ‘The main experiment is for the Strangers to observe if people act a certain way according to their memory or are truly capable of acting out of volition. This, according to the Strangers, is the key to unlocking the secrets of the Human Soul, defined by the Strangers as the human’s capacity for individuality.

              Somewhere below the city, there is a giant clock and a giant globe-like machine both used by the Strangers as proponents in controlling time and the city landscape, respectively. The clock, when shut down, causes temporary comatose in all the subjects, which could possibly indicate an initial chemical injection in the subjects that induces sleep at command. This gives the Strangers and Dr. Schreber time to rearrange peoples’ position and implant them with fabricated memories, creating new long-term memories, as part of the experiment.’



              1. Learned helplessness.

                The mouse will not try to sustain itself no matter how hungry or thirsty it becomes. At the point of desperation when its life is failing, the experimenter reaches in with an eyedropper of water. The mouse takes the water, it wants to live. Then the peanut butter and cheese. The mouse will live only if it recognizes its dependency on an outside authority.
                They used to have a ‘hard limit’. I think it was after the fifth try, if the mouse did not stop reaching for the food it probably wouldn’t and might even die trying, so it was ‘supposed’ to be removed. You don’t really grasp the heartlessness of this until you see it done. Which I don’t recommend. And why I added to my previous comment about ‘the lab’, that this, if true, is very distressing.

                And probably started a very long time ago.
                Fwiw, in the Atlantis Origins trilogy I read, it turned out there was a group of Atlanteans who were deemed inferior. They were given the choice to be genetically altered to bring themselves up to par or go live on another world, Earth. No indication what happened next. And the author doesn’t really explain why certain Atlanteans were deemed inferior.

                I especially liked Haim’s comment about the gov having ‘signed the contract’ on our behalf. 🤨

                1. Orlena

                  Down in the cells and cellular memory.

                  About Atlantis. I’ve talked about my father and there is an Atlantean connection to it I think. He was born in a house called Carclew. It’s got those old Atlantean blues.



                  If my conclusions are correct from what I’m seeing lab rats are a good description. We are coded and manipulated to react in certain ways through our belief system and the energy grid flows down rivers it’s not meant to. And a lot of the manipulation is out of sight. Changing the coding. We are the power.

                  And the Rat Race.


                  It’s Labyrinthine. Even the syncs speak.

                  Maybe I’m A Mazed.

                  And the Song Of David.

                  1. Who is the mad scientist ? At the core I think it’s an ‘ego’ thought form which believes in the separation from God and guilt, fear and survival etc but it seems to be more than just purely unconscious. There does seem to be a conscious reality to this thought form.

                    It’s possible. Even allowing for the dysfunction within humanity, it seems very inhuman. Earth is the Heart.


                    And WHO is the mad scientist.



                    1. Down On The Farm.

                      Energy and Batteries and Battery cells.

                      ‘A cell is the smallest unit of a battery, comprised of 4 key components including cathode, anode, electrolyte and separator. The characteristics of a battery cell play a pivotal role in the overall performance of electrified vehicles.’

                      And Battery Farms.


                      They gave us their mind.



                    2. And memory.

                      The reason why I go into this is because it effects the reality we experience and also believe a lot of the mind control techniques are used in the outer world. And also because I know others have been through the same even if they don’t know it.

                      As part of my SRA memories in one of them I remember being in a medical room in a tunnel. In the tunnel I can see a military truck with stars on the side. It maybe American or Russian. There are men in white coats in the room but I can’t remember their faces.I’m probably about 10 and I’m on a CAT scanner type thing and it is passed over me a number of times. I believe it was to do with something along the lines of DNA scanning.

                      And on a tangent in a mass of memories I can remember only one face.

                      Doppelganger, clone or the real thing I’m not sure.


                    3. Frank

                      It’s important to explore no matter how strange it may seem. And to always consider that different realities or memories may contradict and yet be equally true. I’m coming to the conclusion that this is the way the multiverse just is.

                      Over the last few weeks I’ve gotten hooked on these YT videos which explore abandoned places. They relate to what we’re doing, trying to pull back the curtain, and understand how this functions.

                    4. Orlena


                      The conclusion I’ve come to or rather been shown with my quantum past is that there has been jiggery pokery. It hasn’t been random or rather someone knows how to rig the game. Someone has gone to a lot of effort. And if I’ve got Atlantis and Carclew correct it’s been going on for a long time. Not how it’s meant to be.


                      I read somewhere once that abandoned buildings were symbolic of the past in the subconscious. A memory.

                      And the first pic in your video looked familiar.





  2. This won’t make a lot of sense. Trip into the Underworld.

    Waiting for a Train never stops giving. Talking about the Dark Arts. What goes on under the surface in England’s Green and Pleasant Land and probably in other countries.

    Following Dotty. This is how it speaks.

    The Boarding School

    Hogwarts. Naming and shaming.

    And why ‘survivors’ have a bond.

    1. Is that grapefruit? I ate a grapefruit today for the first time in fucking years. I was surprised the flesh was pink; I remembered grapefruit flesh being yellow.

  3. With the 2020 Tokyo Olympics coming up in 2021 I think its worth a bit of 2020 vision with 2012.

    I went into a lot at the time but it does show how it works.

    Here’s a 303 brick pyramid being built on the Greenwich Prime Meridian during the London Olympics closing ceremony surrounded by representatives of the strongest and fittest humans as Running Up That Hill by Kate Bush is being played.

    And the Stargate.

    We didn’t know Rain then but it was on 12/8/2012 but with the time difference (+5 hours) the closing ceremony would have been on 13/8 in Kazakhstan which is Rain’s birthday.

    1. And Whitney Houston, 2012 and the Olympics and One Moment In Time, and Japan and Nagasaki. Born on 9th August 1963.

      Born in Leo and died in Aquarius.

      ‘Whitney Elizabeth Houston (August 9, 1963 – February 11, 2012) was an American singer and actress. Referred to as “The Voice”, she is regarded as one of the most successful and influential vocalists of all time. Houston released seven studio albums and two soundtrack albums, all of which have been certified diamond, multi-platinum, platinum, or gold by the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA).’

      One Moment In Time .

      ‘On February 11, 2012, Houston was found dead at the Beverly Hilton in Beverly Hills, California. The coroner’s report showed that she had accidentally drowned in the bathtub, with heart disease and cocaine use as contributing factors.’ Case closed.

    1. It’s like…don’t make us beg for water. We’re crawling around in a fractal. What adjustments are being made? You know? What are we doing? It’s one thing, and we split apart to make “the thing” happen.
      Calling Jenny!
      We need good vibes 😭

      1. MJ

        Apols. I’ve been Lost at sea for a while trying to figure out this ‘survival’ thing’. Here with glad tidings and how to make lemonade out of lemmings! We’re going to be ok. One man’s rubbish is another man’s treasure. Really! I found this out when I went to Goodwill. 🙂 Water-water everywhere…with a few adjustments. Add Fire.

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