The Fuel Matrix


I’ve remembered a bit more about what went on in Frank’s Garden before Big Bro told me me to put my clothes on.

1:1 and the Fuel Matrix. And circling back. We may have gone back to a time before we started to begat. Anyway it seems to be about Genesis and both Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene are in the mix somewhere. Read into it what you will. People do. I’ve noticed over the years that people put their own meaning into what I’ve put out and is different from how it speaks to me. Some have also told a lot of porky pies and kept secrets. Why ?

It’s a massive sync fest and confusing as fxxk.






In the Garden.



And just before I started the article I took this pic. Four flowers or blossoms and only one bulb.



Genesis 2:25

And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.

Genesis 3:7

“Then the eyes of both [Adam and Eve] were opened and they realised that they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.”

Genesis 3:9-11

9 : And the LORD God called unto Adam, and said unto him, Where art thou?

10 : And he said, I heard thy voice in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked; and I hid myself.

11 : And he said, Who told thee that thou wast naked? Hast thou eaten of the tree, whereof I commanded thee that thou shouldest not eat ?


And the intellectual stuff which doesn’t really speak to me. It would appear to be germane.





In The Abyss.

‘As Above, So Below’.



From :

“When you look into the abyss, the abyss also looks into you” – Nietzsche

“Nothingness lies coiled in the heart of being – like a worm” – Sartre

In modern Kabbalah there is a well developed notion of an Abyss between the three supernal sephiroth of Kether, Chokhmah, and Binah, and the seven lower sephiroth. When one looks at the progress of the Lightning Flash down the Tree of Life, then one finds that it follows the path structure connecting sephiroth except when it makes the jump from Binah to Chesed, thus reinforcing this idea of a “gap” or “gulf” which has to be crossed. This notion of an Abyss is extremely old and has found its way into Kabbalah in several different forms, and in the course of time they have all been mixed together into the notion of “the Great Abyss”; the Great Abyss is one of those things so necessary that like God, if it didn’t already exist, it would have to be invented.

One of the earliest sources for the Abyss comes from the Bible:

“And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep.”

Kabbalists adopted this view that there was a time before the creation characterised by Tohu and Bohu, namely Chaos and Emptiness. Another idea mentioned several times in the Zohar is that there were several failed attempts at creation before the present one; these attempts failed because mercy and judgement (e.g. force and form) were not balanced, and the resulting detritus of these failed attempts, the broken shells of previous sephiroth, accumulated in the Abyss. Because the shells (Qlippoth) were the result of unbalanced rigour or judgement they were considered evil, and the Abyss became a repository of evil spirits not dissimilar from the pit of Hell into which the rebellious angels were cast, or the rebellious Titans in Greek mythology who were buried as far beneath the Earth as the Earth is beneath the sky.

Another theme which contributed to the notion of the Abyss was the legend of the Fall. According to the Kabbalistic interpretation of the Biblical myth, at the conclusion of the act of Creation there was a pure state, denoted by Eden, where the primordial Adam-and-Eve-conjoined existed in a state of divine perfection. There are various esoteric interpretations of what the Fall represents, but all agree that after the Fall Eden became inaccessible and Adam and Eve were separated and took on bodies of flesh here in the material world. This theme of separation from God and exile in a world of matter (and by extension, limitation, finiteness, pain, suffering, death – manifestations of the rigours or evil inherent in God) precedes Kabbalah and can be found in the Gnostic legend of Sophia exiled in matter. This idea of separation or exile from divinity mirrors very closely the use of the Abyss on the modern Tree to divide the sephiroth representing a human being from the sephiroth representing God.



I Miss You.


8 thoughts on “The Fuel Matrix

    1. ‘It’s a very strange dynamic to be this broken and this blessed.’

      Fractus et Benedictus…Broken and Blessed.

    1. Roob

      Seen and heard. I’ve been wondering since this very public trial began, why these two very toxic people seem to need the world to pay close attention to their mess. 🤨

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